I am finally reviving the old blog, after a long hiatus. Time slips away when I schedule it to the hilt, and that means I've finally realized something basic that anyone could have told me: I didn't lose my zen, and no one took it. I gave it away. I'm still doing that, but I'm slowly getting better.
I gave it away to:
--PCC, every time I signed a full-time contract.
--Waste, to where, I don't really know, but it went, and I'm unhappy about it.
--Television, a profoundly addicting escape.
--Time spent wishing I could write but not doing it.
--Volunteer work, which gratifies me but is also slowly sucking life out of me.
What I'm doing to make it better:
--gardening, which means slowing down.
--writing. Ah, writing.